SInfonia LIfe ....

OWH !!! finally it become a ending to every 1..
if u ask me , got any feeling for the ATC??
i wil be ans " happy 4 learning thing , n i very down "
y down ? i also don know.. actually in this camp.. i very pressure bt i try to mak it realise..
mayb tis is my 1st time become a PL cos be4 i didnt hav a chance 2 be a team 's leader.. of course not include the renjer bahagian de ps lar..
1st i thought i can handled tis.. but finally i cant.. is really hard to me..
i counted my patrol gt bout 30 member include my PS Pei 2 n me..
another way, i took it become my 挑战.. i try it.. i hope that wil be solve by me..
last..
the ans is NO.. i think a lots of negatif things.. if u really know bout me.. u wil be know, i the one always think negatif way.
start, i think that is umpossible be a leader .. but there stil gt a lot pp giv me 鼓励, n I start wan to challenge it..
the exco i wil be thank especially Tze Yunn.. she help me a lot.. solve a lot problem.. teach me hw to lead member n other.. n i also promise her, i wil not such lik that pp.. 动不动就哭的那种. cos i don wan other pp look down me..
ya.. i mak it..
mayb another reason is shi han gua..
i wan become her.. she really 很坚强, mayb 我也被她感染到了吧！
没有表情的，没有知觉，但是我重来都不想在人家的面前哭，所以我才没在atc 时哭。
i stil gt cry.. when??
when v transpot out de bambo..
i dint eat the breadfast, i start wan to muntah.. is very 辛苦 for me..
lastly i cant tahan, n i cry..
那时候，我觉得我真的很没有用！！
现在，回想起，我就会感觉到我或者在别人的眼里是一个没用的人，是个失败者！！
那个痛苦真的很难受，一想到这儿，我的脑里就出现种种负面的东西。眼泪经不住地流了下来。
没想到，我果然很失败！
我是一个不会领导大众的人，因为太久没有这样的感觉了。
I loss de 信心. now i jus wan do better in my bahagian.. i don wan be a fail pp already..
BUT!
if wan qing , jin yi , may2, pei2, hooi shi, meng fei n other pp not in my pp, i stil cant work it..
i very thank 4 all of them... they help me a lot.. like gadget, cooking, item n other..

when pre-camp, i telling all pl bout send their own n 2 pp to choose de bamboo.. WOH!!
is really hard... all bamboo as same.. n hard choose .. but all de guides noe hw 2 do n faster transpot belong their bamboo to the campsite.. after that, i return the campsite...
i saw some patrol already start build their gadget.. i was very worry..
so i pass the EQ rack to wan qing n may2 cos i believe them can do it.. later i let jin yi become the d.u main , i teach her how 2 build it.. then, i also teach pei2 bout the tent.. hooi shi is 能干的人，so i trust her the table n chair.. but my gateway!!!!
all member help other, n i also busy to solve their question.. i was waste time 4 it.. lastly i cant build my dream gateway.. i very sad..
nearly 3pm, was a ice-breaking..
1st i didnt mind v can won the game... unbelieve!!! my patrol all member r very happy .. bt v lose the exco ( atcually is our fault, cos v let go. hehe) then, having introduce every 1..
later, v return the campsite continue de work..
tik tok tik tok..
pre-camp is finish..
but i stil cant slleppp
i stil gt mascot.. flag... n other!!! so that day near 4am sleep.. n jus sleep 2 hours.. haiz... die..